Day 63 – Elegy for Dad, pt. 1

Monday, November 2, 2009
Day 63
2:00 pm – 3:00 pm

Elegy for Dad, pt. 1

(months before) i remember

It was the most serious
of all hospital visits I had ever made
So striking was it, then,
how casually the doctor strolled in
to deliver the diagnosis
that completely changed us

For whatever reason we
sat in a line of chairs facing
the door of the hospital room
Mom to my left and you to my
right, they were rather large
chairs for such a small room

We kept still until she plopped down
It took me much longer, I think,
to absorb such news
from a physician with hands
behind her head and feet
propped on top of the counter

It was too much, too odd
how little
formality she offered
like she was proffering
a new prescription for a
headache with light fever

How prepared you seemed
at how devastated Mom was,
hiding behind her folder filled
with research on possible treatments
All of which were met with lightning
speed No’s by the doctor

You were the one dying
yet you reached across me
to touch Mom’s shoulder
to ask if she would be okay
She was defeated and angry
in her glaring reply of No

The single moment of sense that day
came when walking down the corridor
back to the elevator behind
the two of you, seeing you two,
which you rarely did,
hold hands.

tkk

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About traciakemi

traci akemi kato-kiriyama - inter/multi-disciplinary theatre/performance artist, arts educator, cultural worker, community organizer. Tuesday Night Project; theatre, performance, writing, and teaching projects with many organizations and artists including: zero 3; Edge of The World for Asian Arts Initiative in Philadelphia and the National Asian American Theatre Festival in New York; "PULL" with Kennedy Kabasares in San Francisco; Nobuko Miyamoto and Great Leap Collaboratory I; TeAda; NCRR; Oymun's 11. Playwright for "Chasing Dad - a performance of a reading about a play i'm writing" presented by Inside the Ford for the Ford's Summer Playwright series. View all posts by traciakemi

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