Day 266 – Sailing

Monday, May 24, 2010
Day 266
7:47 pm


my “adopted papa” Brian
sails all over the Puget Sound
in his new boat and broad smile

asks me when I’m coming for
a visit so I can see his real home,
not the beautiful place that he
built, where we’ve stayed,
but his kingdom out there
on the choppy floors
of the ocean’s belly

that house of his is gorgeous,
wide open rooms, views for days,
the entire back wall of windows
facing the engulfed bay

he once pointed out to me
the long wall at the front doorway
that used to be full of pictures of
all his children and grandchildren

now there is only one picture
hanging off to the left side of the wall
not out of place, just unaligned
as it is surrounded by the shadows
of the frames formerly
hung all around

he removed all but the one
of one of his sons
the son who died at the mere
age of 41
the son whose brain was attacked
by some unknown disease
the son whose life Brian wanted
to keep fighting for while
the rest disagreed

so the rest no longer have a
place in his life, he says
and they no longer have a place
on that wall

in the moment he told me this
i realized i won’t really know
my papa Brian until the day
i set sail with him

for it is not that house where
his heart stays

it is out there over the sea
where perhaps he is
cracked wide open,
at peace and awakened,
the most whole and alone
and in conversation with
the storms and songs that
make the most sense to him



About traciakemi

traci akemi kato-kiriyama - inter/multi-disciplinary theatre/performance artist, arts educator, cultural worker, community organizer. Tuesday Night Project; theatre, performance, writing, and teaching projects with many organizations and artists including: zero 3; Edge of The World for Asian Arts Initiative in Philadelphia and the National Asian American Theatre Festival in New York; "PULL" with Kennedy Kabasares in San Francisco; Nobuko Miyamoto and Great Leap Collaboratory I; TeAda; NCRR; Oymun's 11. Playwright for "Chasing Dad - a performance of a reading about a play i'm writing" presented by Inside the Ford for the Ford's Summer Playwright series. View all posts by traciakemi

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