Day 133 – dear john.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Day 133
1:15 am

dear john.

i often curse Facebook.

i love and hate it.

i check it almost every day.

i do the same things.

i check my profile page.

i look for recent messages.

i add people who i’ve met.

or those who seem like i might actually meet.

i ignore most everything else.

i don’t keep up with notifications.

i don’t poke.

i don’t virtual farm.

i don’t look at group invitations.

until today.

i happened to scroll down.

cool groups to join.

Pluto is a planet.

keep Garrett on Hawai’i 5-O.

paranormal activity in Little Tokyo.

and there was a memorial page for you.

i have no idea when it started.

i was obviously behind in joining.

i suddenly got scared.

what if your regular page was taken down.

i had never once gone on it since before June.

i just couldn’t.

but now i had to check.

and there it was.

i didn’t stay long.

but it’s there.

i’ll be back eventually.

to read the zillion comments.

they were there.

comments.

recent comments.

very recent comments.

people are still posting on your wall.

of course they are.

this is what it feels like.

to reach out to you in bursts.

and miss you all the time.

thank goodness for Facebook.

tkk

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About traciakemi

traci akemi kato-kiriyama - inter/multi-disciplinary theatre/performance artist, arts educator, cultural worker, community organizer. Tuesday Night Project; theatre, performance, writing, and teaching projects with many organizations and artists including: zero 3; Edge of The World for Asian Arts Initiative in Philadelphia and the National Asian American Theatre Festival in New York; "PULL" with Kennedy Kabasares in San Francisco; Nobuko Miyamoto and Great Leap Collaboratory I; TeAda; NCRR; Oymun's 11. Playwright for "Chasing Dad - a performance of a reading about a play i'm writing" presented by Inside the Ford for the Ford's Summer Playwright series. View all posts by traciakemi

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