Day 144 – the other side of it

Saturday, January 22, 2011
Day 144
8:05 pm

the other side of it

there was a part in loneliness where i
understood how to be comfortable,
not just in the glory of being alone,
but truly, lonely,
with wonder in the presence
of sorrow,
face flush to the mirror,
waiting to hear
some winged calling from
the sky,
some buzz followed by a blow out
of the flourescents above me,
some kind of any thing
to make a confirmation
i was not in control
it was safer there

there,
was just the
waiting room,
an empty space
with crinkled magazines and
no time like the present
to sit down and catch up
on old news

there, was the
time to wish for
something else to come along
and feel any times better than
the herald of a hush swirling
through the windows to
remind me
the noise outside
had a better home than
the hurricane in my head

painful as it might have been,
emptiness and time
held hands quite well
over my tummy while
lying in the middle of nowhere

maybe now, it is just
the daunting task
of having too much control
that has me looking back,
and if not long, just wonder
how it might feel if loneliness
rears its head again

tkk

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About traciakemi

traci akemi kato-kiriyama - inter/multi-disciplinary theatre/performance artist, arts educator, cultural worker, community organizer. Tuesday Night Project; theatre, performance, writing, and teaching projects with many organizations and artists including: zero 3; Edge of The World for Asian Arts Initiative in Philadelphia and the National Asian American Theatre Festival in New York; "PULL" with Kennedy Kabasares in San Francisco; Nobuko Miyamoto and Great Leap Collaboratory I; TeAda; NCRR; Oymun's 11. Playwright for "Chasing Dad - a performance of a reading about a play i'm writing" presented by Inside the Ford for the Ford's Summer Playwright series. View all posts by traciakemi

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